Holiday Blues

I think the last few days I've been kind of cranky because it really makes me sad to miss yet another year of holidays with our families. I'm not upset by the fact that we can't afford this much this year, Christmas isn't about presents anyways. To me, it's about being with family, going and visiting families houses or family coming to visit my house, having a nice dinner and yah a few presents for the kiddies. I don't want to say it sucks cause I do have Kenzie and Trapper and our pets lol but I just really miss my family and it makes me sad to read all these wonderful plans family members are planning on doing. To include the party my parents have every Christmas eve. Granted I can't attend that every year since we will be in Oregon and they live in Minnesota but it's been soooooooo long since I was at one of their parties. Some family I haven't seen in years, some have never even met my husband or his two little girls. I'm trying really hard to snap out of it cause Kenzie's birthday is tomorrow and we have a full day planned of baking and watching J.I. Joe lol. I'm gonna try but I'm just really sad we can't spend it with more family. Trapper keeps telling me it's okay cause we have each other and I know that but it still doesn't change the fact that we can't go visit family and have his daughters with us during the holidays. But for Kenzie and Trapper I'm gonna try really hard not to be to sad the rest of the week.